Hello everyone and welcome to 2009!
I feel positive. I feel good. Empowered to make this year better than the last one. The last two in fact were the hardest of my life. I look back on last year and I can draw no other conclusion than I am much stronger than I previously thought I was since I did not break.
This year I have a much broader and more accurate perspective on things and I am once again able to apply the approach I have always taken to life – be in the moment. The moment is warm, exhilarating, fine. Each moment falls into the next with a fluidity, a supple sort of grace unseen before.
I feel that I have a much better grasp on fear. Fear seems now to be an anxiety about change, a blindness to our actual capabilities. We fear because we do not look. We fear because we do not think. We fear because we do not remember who we are; where we are; how far we have come. We fear because we see only the solitary woods and not our fellow travelers.
We fear because we have been trained to fear. We have been trained to get “educations”, to get jobs, to stand in line and be counted among those who are living “the dream”. I have my own dream. I have my own line. I walk it with a much greater understanding than most people I have met. I have no ego about it. Only humility. Greater understanding comes only through greater sacrifice.
I have been willing to give up everything I was to become everything I am. That is my journey.
And my journey emboldens me and makes me feel more alive and more free.
I tend to think many more people would be happier on a journey similar to mine. Sadly, I can not compete with an entire culture of parents, friends, educators, politicians, consumer goods companies and advertisers who are selling the middle class myth.
My sincerest hope is that my life and career will ultimately serve as an example to others and that once I have more time set aside I can do something to inspire people en masse.
Until then, I hope all of you find your way to happiness, success and satisfaction.
